Each woman who writes on this blog considers herself a writer. I’m also pretty sure we all consider ourselves amateur writers. That’s a big part of the reason we started this blog. We’re learning. This blog serves as our public meeting place and a visual reminder of our writing processes. Becoming better writers is our goal.
That makes me wonder about the people who are reading this blog. I wonder if our readers are expecting superbly polished literary action here, or if they’re truly enjoying the voyeuristic opportunity a group blog like this provides. These posts aren’t just meant to showcase how well we write (though that would be totally appropriate to display), they’re also meant to be conversations between the chickz and our readers.
So, what about other writers who read this blog? Especially those who have books or numerous publications under their belts? Do they read these posts and dismiss us as self-important wannabes, or do they see this blog as something productive, maybe even necessary?
I can’t think of a writer I like who has given me the opportunity to look into their past work and see how awful they were when they started. I’ve heard writers say they used to be awful, but I’ve never seen any proof. Not one bad poem or wished-away story plot. I’ve definitely never seen an amateur writer’s process to becoming a professional writer.
I think this is true of most artists. Our work is so caught up in our identity that much the way we hide our 13 year-old school pictures, we hide any evidence that we were not always who we are now. The ego is at work and someone reading our shitty 10 year-old poetry makes us want to gag.
That’s just one of the reasons I’m so excited about this blog. I never want people to think I don’t struggle with my writing. I struggle with it constantly. I fight it, scream at it, and use it for evil. When it’s finished, I stare at it for three days before I’ll let anyone else see it. I point the finger and take the credit. I’m not nice to my words. And they’re not always nice to me.
But this is part of the process toward getting better, to becoming the kind of writer I want to be. I hope that someone else sees what we do here and realizes that most writers aren’t just born “good writers”. We’re working for this and I’m certain that this blog is only a small part of how hard we’re working behind the scenes. It’s important that people see that. I’m going to try to show that more here. Also, I hope to post a real story here next week. I might think it sucks a week after that, but I promise I won’t delete the post it’s attached to.
I look forward to being more honest about my process.